Smoke & God’s Love

As I sat outside guarding the smoker I noticed the smoke spiraling and curling up and out of the wooden pergula above. The day had been a hot one filled with coffee, job applications, house hunting and more. Oh, friends, my bones are weary. After last March, when I was diagnosed with anemia and IBS it has been hard getting up enough energy and stamina to make it through the day.

But God is with me and I shall make it through.

Oh, God is so good!

That smoke I was talking about earlier reminded me of praying.

When I pray about someone or something, the anxiety I’m feeling immediately just spirals up and away like smoke.

I rest in God’s love and trust that he will overcome my fears and anxieties.

Blessing #7: Jesus, Blue Skies, Dry Heat & Trips down Memory Lane

Today, has been a roller coaster of emotions for me.

The day began hot and cloudless the sun bathing down on the front garden like a magnifying glass refracting light, in a most piercing manner.

I started my day with coffee, which was good. I’ve been browsing around for coffee deals as this wedding planning is not nearly done. And ya know for planning and college classes, everyday, sometimes you just need a little perk up! I love African coffee and notes of chocolate, yes please!

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I sure didn’t start the day in a very healthy way, skipping breakfast.

I guess, nowadays, with my IBS it seems harder for me to eat because if I eat something that’s now low-fodmap I sometimes, literally double over in pain.

So, I became overwhelmed about my college financial aid, which, imagine my luck, I was chosen for financial verification. Which is a random selection… Arrgh. Skipping breakfast and having that to deal with that, I was such an emotional mess by 9:30 am. Thankfully, my

dear fiancรฉ held me while I cried. He’s so good and loving!

Then we prayed our morning Novena’s together, which is always such a beautiful and unifying thing for us.

That I think was the change I needed for my day to become brighter.

After we prayed, he went off to work and I was able to sit down and really get down to the nitty-gritty of my college class.

Which, I worked on for much of the afternoon and got a couple of assignments outta’ the way. Which was actually surprisingly successful! To my great relief. I scored a B on my 8 page APA essay, which I was happily surprised with.

I’ve been having some pain in my feet recently which I think is due to the heat, perhaps. I painted my toes for the first time in a coon’s age. I like the color it’s an ESSIE quick dry nail color.

I am absolutely thrilled about my fiance getting a teaching position at a high school. I think he’ll really enjoy that!

The wonderful thing is I have no idea where he’ll get a job and therefore where we’ll be living. I do hope we find out before August though. Being surprised about where you’ll be living is good. But being surprised about where you’ll be moving within a couple of days I think is a bit jarring.

Admittedly, I’m a little anxious about that.

In the early evening, I was able to go through some old boxes of mine in the attic and closets. What a treasure trove of different memories, I found, goodness! I used to be such an artist and I found so much of my art.

I also have this somewhat odd affinity for saving letters and cards that people have sent me. Kind of a bad habit, I guess. I even found my confirmation papers and several Catholic books about finding happiness while being single and prayers for your future husband. Golly gee, those books are all dog-eared and coffee stained. Haha, they sure served a purpose though! So, all in all, the trip down memory lane was one filled with great joy and many tears.

Well, until tomorrow my dear friends, I hope all is well ๐Ÿ™‚

Travel #1: New- Orleans-travels

I gingerly sip the rest of my latte and peer out the window at the rolling hills flush with green. What a beautiful creation this world is, honestly who could think twice about not embracing such a beautiful planet and world. The world now is so confused and utterly turned on it’s head, right now, it seems.

Aside from that little bout of thought on today’s world life goes on. Some music to brighten your morning :).

Though truly if someone were to ask me every day is a miracle and quite an extra-ordinary experience. Each day presents a new way to give to others and to impact others in loving ways. Sometimes by just a simple gesture. That is what brings me joy.

I am reflecting this morning on the splendors and beauty I experienced recently on my fiance and I’s roadtrip to New Orleans. What an adventure!! And I got to meet my future in-laws and more of his family too. The second night we were there we went to a Jazz Bar to The Spotted Cat. The first I had ever been to. So Loud! So much Fun!!

The Perfect Night Cap

Last night I was so tired! When I had gotten home from my wonderful time at the Indian restaurant I found the dishes needed washed. So after washing the dishes I was feeling more awake. I have had trouble sleeping for years and I did not want tonight to be a night I couldn’t sleep. I would guess this sleeplessness resulted from my TBI.



When I was in the grocery store last I picked up some chamomile “sleepy” tea. With my farm experience/herbal research I do know that chamomile is a sedative. It was glorious! I had the best sleep with no interruptions!

If, perhaps you have the same problem. Here are a list of other herbs and methods for sleep:

Hot milk, touch of honey, with a hint of cinnamon and nutmeg

Lavender candles- the scent of lavender

Eating a small bow of oatmeal– SHOCKER!! But one I can definitely attest too.

Also, there’s this breathing exercise that I learned: Here’s how it goes: Close you eyes begin breathing deeply, picture a Black sea and on it a black ship. Watch the rhythm of the waves. Keep breathing deeply.

That last one is pretty nifty. My grandfather, who fought in the Frozen Chosin war taught me that one. Does the trick too!

Incredible Indian Food Adventure!!

Oh my goodness friends, my dear and I were invited to a dinner out tonight with some friends. My friend told us the occasion and boy did she choose the right spot!! We met up with everyone at an Indian restaurant that was hands down 10/10. I had too many dishes of too many entrees/appetizers/desserts I couldn’t pronounce and, of course my friends, the company was superb!

The trip home took a good long time, so my dear, and I enjoyed the long dark ride. Passing cars in the dark reminded me of Tracy Chapman’s, Fast Car song. Which really is sad and quite melancholy.



Anyway, hope all is well with everyone and I look forward to posting my next adventure soon ๐Ÿ™‚

Amazing Pizza Night!

So last night my closest and I had a pizza night. It was superb!

As I ran to get the door I could smell the wafts of marinara and cheese. It was superb! I opened the door and ushered in my closest holding a fresh baked pizza and a bottle of red wine! what a dear. My dear is basically a home chef! ๐Ÿ™‚

 

Gourmet-pizza

 

Anyway, after our pizza we watched a movie called Night School which was pretty funny. Actually it was just funny. Not funny enough to be pretty funny. It’s one of those movies you’d want to watch when you just need to relax and giggle a bit. It was a great night and one I shan’t forget anytime soon!

And I know what night school is like. Oh, Lordee! I remember my night classes in college. For me it was even worse not only did I have a night class but I had a night class in algebra. Arrgggh… Thankfully, I made it out alive, metaphorically of course.