This morning began a little too early for my pleasing. The sun beamed through my window at the break of dawn. Which would be fine if the windows had curtains. The curtains, however, are not up. This morning is gray and rainy as I sit back and enjoy coffee on my balcony this morning the stray drip drip drips off the gutter spot my shirt. The sun glistens through my balcony now. What a beautiful reminder of God's grace as I persevere today through my studies. I'm considering this past Sunday's homily. The priest shared with the congregation that we must live everyday through love and not get to caught up in our own aspirations but awaken to what the Lord has for us to do that day, that hour, that minute. This caused me to think about how I am living and how I may not be living up to God's calling in my life. I have been reflecting about this during this chaotic time where every business needs all hands on deck and is hiring everyone and there dog, literally. It is a reflection that I am taking to heart. He also reminded us of the Lord's enduring love. Which sometimes can be a struggle for me to embrace that truth, as a sinner. The priest reminded us that there is hope through God's grace and we must just follow him and not get caught up in our worldly ways, to the best of our ability. Those are powerful words and I can only hope in my little way to follow the Lord and do good.
As I sat outside guarding the smoker I noticed the smoke spiraling and curling up and out of the wooden pergula above. The day had been a hot one filled with coffee, job applications, house hunting and more. Oh, friends, my bones are weary. After last March, when I was diagnosed with anemia and IBS it has been hard getting up enough energy and stamina to make it through the day.
But God is with me and I shall make it through.
Oh, God is so good!
That smoke I was talking about earlier reminded me of praying.
When I pray about someone or something, the anxiety I’m feeling immediately just spirals up and away like smoke.
I rest in God’s love and trust that he will overcome my fears and anxieties.